My dreams make me question my sanity?

What a fascinating and disturbing dream! I can't help but decode it. Your dream reveals your subconscious mind; your doubts and insecurities of not only your manhood, but the size and power of your earnings, estate, profession, etc. You feel you may or may not be man enough or good enough in the eyes of society, feeling like you have to do bigger and better things. You put a lot of importance on the essence of a man, his size, as most men do. The fact that in your dream, the shadow of one's penis was highly valued, in real life it seems that those who are higher up (pun intended) like CEOS and presidents are more valued than others in society. This is often reality. In a world where one's success is proven by the size of his earnings and possessions, it makes sense you would have such a disturbing dream. Perhaps the erection can be seen as a symbol of success- the fact you had to fake it in your dream displays real life doubts and insecurities about truly being good enough as you are.